A typical jerk off ? ?

honey look move on and let it go. you don't want to hear that but you are driving yourself crazy. okay your catholic and you lost your virginity to him, God is a forgiving God! Ask him to forgive you and he will wipe your slate clean and cast your sin into the sea of forget fullness. honey i'm sorry but your thinking unrealistically. no he's not in the hospital, he's tending to his family and not thinking about you at all i'm positive. you have so many things in common in this world, you can get anybody. and you are way to young to be like this. it ain't about losing your virginity. i lost my virginity when i was thirteen and i'm sixteen now with a new guy who loves me a million times more than that other jerk. if you believe God loves you, trust in Him that he will bring somebody better in your life.