Please tell me whats wrong with me, i cant take anymore?

I'm very sorry to hear about your dad's diagnosis. I'm sure your entire family is under a tremendous amount os stress. But, dear, you're sending mixed signals. On one hand you don't want people to see you cry, and don't want hugged or consoled...but then you're angry that people are not asking how your dad, and you are getting along. I can understand you're upset, but I think maybe your friends don't know how to react to you because you push them away, yet want them close. Take one day at a time, and know that you WILL get thru these trying times. I wish you the best.